made some changes. and created a guestbook. do sign alright? under "shout outs". thanks! and the disclaimer thing. the parts abt not asking people to make templates? dont bother. cos that's the only thing that i dont agree. cos well, faizah did help me right? oh yeah. and that part abt the receiving hundreds of messages a day. uh uh. complete fiction.

do not assume. it's the golden rule in my blog man. obey or get upset. pls dont speculate.

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mariah carey can be really depressing sometimes. she and her old sappy songs. gah.

the talk today was great. charis patrick rocks! haha. i wanna be like her when i grow up. cos she's gonna make one hell of a funky mum! she's one charismatic speaker too. so cool.

on a side note...

feeling the weight of a couple of things on my shoulders right now. a girl can only carry so much. why does it have to be so? i thought things were fine. i guess not.

this is MY blog. so i'm gonna rant as and when i wish.

like now.

why do some people seem to be more influenced than others? why cant they stand on their own two feet? why cant they be more independent? why cant they be supportive? why cant they clear the damn air? why do they keep everything inside? why do they just shut up, take it all in and accept when they should have bloody hell defended? why do they think others dont know what they're doing? why is it that this seems to be a fuckingly vicious cycle that never ceases? on the contrary it gets even more intense and heated? why do they act as though it doesnt matter when it totally does? why do they think others are just crap? for them to put away and dump one side and then they can easily retrieve it back whenever it feels convenient? why do they hide behind many different facades? as though the world is blind enough to not see it? why the pretense? why do they think that what they do doesnt matter to other people? why dont they try to probe a little further? why cant they realise that they matter? a whole lot? why do they just drift and disappear into thin air? why dont they care? why cant they understand that it takes two hands to clap? that it takes two to tango and what not? why cant they get that there's always this period where enough is enough and the need to settle it once and for all is so damn necessary? why dont they do anything about it?

why why why oh why?

qualities i need in a great friend: reliabilty, loyalty, flexibility, honesty, understanding. feel free to state your needs. may be willing to accept and do something about it.

READ: DO NOT ASSUME OR SPECULATE.