"You're Beautiful"

My life is brilliant.
My love is pure.
I saw an angel.
Of that I'm sure.
She smiled at me on the subway.
She was with another man.
But I won't lose no sleep on that,
'Cause I've got a plan.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
Yeah, she caught my eye,
As we walked on by.
She could see from my face that I was,
Fucking high,
And I don't think that I'll see her again,
But we shared a moment that will last till the end.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
I saw your face in a crowded place,
And I don't know what to do,
'Cause I'll never be with you.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful.
You're beautiful, it's true.
There must be an angel with a smile on her face,
When she thought up that I should be with you.
But it's time to face the truth,
I will never be with you.

*sigh... okay, i know it's not exactly a new song or whatever. but well, it suddenly got stuck to my head like superSUPER glue. hmm. and it's currently on repeat mode. feeling all mushy. haha.

if you think abt the storyline right. wouldnt it be so freaking cool to be the girl in it? it's like.. so sweet and all.

okay. that's it. *snaps fingers*

i'm out of that mood.

TODAY. let's see.

right. during recess, after amaths, my stress level was like this high. *puts hand at the top of head*

and well. i wasnt the only one.

i couldnt take it anymore. numbers just seemed a bloody blur to me. oh wait. make that seemS.

i decided to take a break. so i switched on the class radio. i then proceeded on to close the back door in case some friggin' annoying tcher decides it's too "distracting".

for some reason, i slammed the door freaking hard. felt the great need to vent it all out? maybe. well, unknowing to me, naz and lily who were seating right beside me in class were feeling as pissed and helpless as me. and yeah. it was regarding amaths too. *rolls eyes*

so, when i slammed the door, they both screamed and yelled in utter frustration. they snapped i suppose. nope, the story's not done yet.

see, then i went back to my seat (beside naz) and i started to yell too. cos i concluded i would feel much better. what i didnt consider however, was the fact that girls are full of funny moments. and you know full well i'm not talking abt funny "ha ha".

and you know what, the 3 of us yellled and cried out in such distress, me and naz started tearing.

I KNOW. plain lame right?

and you know what. santana's "smooth" was playing on power 98. rightt. that was smooth.

but well. considering what i DO NOT comprehend of amaths...

oh yeah. right before i slammed the door right, mr sng walked out of class. he passed us the lit collated marks. thank god the whole episode happened AFTER the tcher walked out. can you imagine how that would mde us appear? *rolls eyes*

anyway, as if on cue, fatmah walked in right after we calmed down. walked abt the third level with her. she has this peaceful, calm and serene aura abt her. it's relaxing. i mean, hey, i'm like super panicky and my panic attacks are pretty frequent.

okay. then it was reading followed by ss/geog.

ss period was... i cant quite place the word i'd like to use. it was... complicated and rather uncalled for? i mean, are we that bad? somehow, i think most of us really do think otherwise. i mean come on! you take out anything and everything to do with academics and what do you get?

sometimes i think, in the small private world we live in (aka dearest singapore), most of the ppl here forget abt everything else apart frm studies. it's quite sad if you think about it.

they say "live life to the fullest", "enjoy every moment as if you'd never live to live the next day", "dont worry be happy". but HOW do you expect that to happen here in our little sunny island where students hyperventilate in disappointment (?) when you fail a test by TWO marks?

sigh. WE got our priorities mixed up? how abt YOU forgot all abt the art of living this thing called life?

i dont know. confused. as usual.

happy to see us leave? i doubt we'll be that sad either.

right after her leave, the whole class got into action. no more circles. no more bright spots in 3c. no more reminders of the fun we have.

we have to get serious right? we have to snap out of it. do we really like what they think of us? OF COS NOT. we are PLAYFUL, IRRESPoNSIBLE, NOT SERIOUS and the fucking list goes on. *rolls eyes*

everyone agreed the class felt so empty and naked without our circles! god, i'll really miss them. the walls are too bare now. :(

anyway, chem was next. and if how we reacted to everything wasnt hilarious, i dont know what is. haha.

seriously guys! we had ms begam caught in a spasm of surprise didnt we? *winks

mon and tue fully booked. amaths, chem and physics extra lesson.

hold on a minute. what holiday you were saying again?