Red Hot Passion
11 February 2006

There's still that sliver of light in the dark

There's so much to say, really! Plenty going on. I'm at a loss as to where to begin. How do I feel? Well, emotions swirling around, mixing themselves up, resulting in brand new concoctions altogether are currently a thing of the norm. I can't specifically place a name for how I'm feeling presently.

People find different ways to numb themselves, a way to be devoid of emotions and perhaps morbid in nature, to enter a demonic state of senseless anguish and pain, tattered with heart breaking anticipation of what might be tomorrow. Some entrench themselves in the magic dragon while others go in pursuit of the magic drink. Others pretend everything is ok until the emotions overwhelm them. I used to numb myself by sleeping it off. I begin to realize that my reliable old friend is no longer there. I wake up hoping to desensitize myself, numbing myself from whatever that bothers me. Instead I find myself a million times amplified.

Taken from Gary's blog. I couldn't agree more. About it being amplified, after denying it for some time. It'll just worsen.

Open your eyes. It really is all about perceptions. It really stumps me sometimes, how things are. They change in an instant; a snap's all it takes. What's most hurting, is the fact that it could have been prevented. Prevention's better than cure.

But hey, dwell in that and you'll never surge forward. It'll just remain as it is. No, actually it won't. It'll worsen. It'll get to you like no other. Eating you up bit by bit. Cos deep inside, things at hand are a whole different matter altogether, maximised and stretched at a new level. The level where the risks of snapping are huge. The level where turning back to what it once was, may be a thing of the past. The level where "sorry"s are worth nothing. The level where helplessness is the only constant feeling.

Don't let it get there. Just don't.

A short, supposedly insignificant, exchange of words damages till no end. Things build up. They multiply, they grow. People suck it in, little by little. Things build up. They multiply, they grow. Tolerance, is never advisable. Acceptance is welcomed with open arms.

Co-operate. Team work. Only with effort, can you reap the results you want! You can't expect it to happen with only a handful playing their part! That's plain ridiculous! Do your part, too!

Chances. Opportunities. Give it. Give it, aplenty. It's something you really shouldn't be stingy about. Would it kill you? Would it, really? And why not, if it helps? Pride, should be set aside. In fact, it should be shoved inside the closet and slam that door shut, please!

Will. The will to change. The will to improve. The will to better yourself. The will to feel more. The will to empathise. The will to listen to what others have to say. No, not hear. Listen! Open your ears! Don't walk away and deny! Listen! And listen good! Don't shut it off either. Take it in your stride. Do what you're supposed to do.

Your instincts. What your heart says, what your guts say, listen to that too. You know what you should do. Do it. Hand in hand with your sense, it'll work out. It'll work out fine.

Adapt. Change is the only constant in life. Need I say more?

Learn. Learn and don't commit it again!

Lastly, have faith, will ya! Believe! Jeez, you'd think you guys were born immune to happy feelings or something! I'd look back, and laugh myself silly at the things you do and say! I want my monkeys back! (:

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Well, on to other things now.

Olevels top scorer hails from Cedar! Yeah man! Haha. Woohoo. All of us are so incredibly proud of Cedar! The media was already on stand by way before hand! But that's just cos RGS and RI have that IP thing, right. But still! Madness! Trip science and Lit and Jap! 10 A1s! Nuts!

We were inside Clara's dad's car when the news mentioned about the Olevel results. Haha. When we heard our school's name, we just went bonkers inside. Now that's what you'd call school spirit!

Ms Leong came back! It felt so good to hear her voice again! Man! Don't we all miss her? You know the combined science class' average L1R5's 10! What a morale booster! Haha. When the statistics were flashed in the hall, it was really unbelievable. Last year's batch did so freaking well lah! Hope it'll be the same for our cohort!

Okay. I need a breather. Phew! See ya.

Huda
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